Kitten? hmmmm??? *nudge nudge*

So I haven’t written on here in awhile. Things are going well. I’d have to say I’m still happy ^_^ I’m quite unhappy about the whole ‘cat’ situation. I mean, come on man, at least let me have a gerbil ._.’’ I just want something that’s fluffy, I really don’t understand how that would be such an immature thought. It’s like, once people grow up they forget what it’s like to be young. I’ll never overly mature. I’m perfectly capable of reasoning like an adult, I mean, I am one! Lol. However, if I want a damn gerbil, I want a damn gerbil! Don’t treat me like I’m some little kid. Honestly, I don’t feel like it’s necessary to even ask. I should have stood my ground in the beginning of it all and established my maturity before I started acting like a retard, lol. Oh well.

It kinda makes me feel shitty knowing that he doesn’t really have much respect for me. (at least this is how I feel). I guess, still, it’s my own fault. I really don’t want him to think I’m irresponsible. I’m not, honest to god! I know how to set priorities and I know what needs to be done! (one in the same :p) But yep, that’s what’s on my mind at the moment. I did feel it was necessary to ask him before getting a cat though. It does live a lot longer than a smaller animal and requires much more accommodations I suppose. But saying no to a gerbil? Come on! u.u *sigh* Oh well, I’ll get him on it one day! Another thing…why the **** can’t I buy an xbox? I’m a gamer too, damnit! Don’t tell me what I can and can’t buy just because you want to own it. We’re a team, right? Oh, another thing. You’re still listed as “divorced” on myspace. Wth? I would have thought you would have put “in a relationship” by now… ._.’ I should just be satisfied with being on the top, ne? lol. Silly really….bah…you don’t pay much attention to myspace anyhow…

Well, I have my school graduation thing to go to this Friday. Woot…finally finished e_E (btw, thanks for keeping me in line, regardless of my obviously being capable of doing fine on my own, mfft! >_>) I’m not really looking forward to going. I don’t want to drive there. I hate driving to places that I haven’t driven to before! It really makes me nervous. Not to mention I’ll have to drive to my mom’s afterwards. I’m seriously considering leaving earlier to drop the car off at my mom’s and taking public transportation the rest of the way… esh… So yep. Man, I’ve really been missing my the old chat days lately! Shuichi, facking talk to me >_< A lot of friendships have been lost in time… it’s very regrettable… *siiighhh*

On to the new! Oh man, Resident Evil 5 is awesome! Played through it with muh man :3 Unfortunately lately he’s been consumed by Fallout 3… *sigh* Please baby, please! Play it on Veteran with me D: … >_> So yep. I think this will conclude tonight’s blog entry. I’m thoroughly satisfied with my thoughts :D rawr… >.>;; heheh…

A Wonderful Life

Ahh...What a wonderful feeling...I have been feeling very satisfied with my direction lately....Well, as far as home life goes. I recently moved in with my wonderfully epic boyfriend. Oh lawd, he's so great. Hmm...howevery there's still some things bothering me. Well, mainly just work related, and I'm sure there will be a solution to that soon enough.

Currently seeking work. I think I'm doing everything pretty ok. I've been updating my resumes and profiles on Monster, CareerBuilder, as well as Jobs.com. I'm starting to understand Resumes more and more each day and have even gone far enough to start helping a friend with his as well. ^__^ I'm quite proud of that, I know he appreciates it, even when I act like an ass when he tries to get sidetracked >_> Like today I was updating his profiles on Monster and he noticed it was moving really slow. Massive lag more like it....so he told me to CtrlAltDel it....I was like like "I think it'll survive for two seconds." Totally wouldn't let him touch it. I knew if I had he'd gone on with it for hours and all my work would be for not. Anyways, I got his info down and am going to try to work on something more professional. I think his standards might be set alittle high for this time in his life. He needs some schooling. Though he is massively talented..people want to see degrees. That sucks.

Got off topic, aye? But yep. I'm searching for a job. Summed up.

Back to the boyfriend. Oh geeze. He's so awesome. I don't think I could find someone more wonderful than him, so I won't bother searching xP He's so great. Whenever I think to the future (which I do far too often) I know he'll make life wonderful with me. He fits into my plans perfectly, mwahahaha... >_> ya, whatevs. Seriously though. He's a fantastic guy. ^_____^ mmm..

So yah, livin' in the house now. It's great here...though it's a bit colder than back home. n_n It just has a nice air about it. No stress really (besides what I create for myself, how annoying..) Still trying to knock out some bad habits for the benefit of us both. I have a little bit of a messy personality, I really am trying to work on that. Along with keeping myself occupied while he's at work. Hopefully the job I find will be the same hours as his job....I'd hate to not see him all day. It'd massively blow.

Alright, that's all. I am bored of this. Back to the job seach : D

Progression of life

Omg, I finally figured out how to change this damn font. . . I knew it was possible to do, but for some odd reason it never occured to me to click 'compose'... >_> Shows how my intelligence is slipping. ^^;; So anyways. Let's see... Things have been pretty good lately ^_^ Nothing to complain about. Well, besides my crazy family, but everybody has some little oddities about their home...at least I think so o_O; So I'll just ignore them as always ^o^ Works best that way. No point in complaining about something that will never change @_@

Anyways. It seems like the hostilities between past interests and I have been resolved...if only temporarily. But out with the old in with the new! ha ha...So on with that. He's awesome. Seriously. I'm like, so ridiculously calm all the time now. . . I've actually began to think there's something not normal about how wonderful it all seems. But screw that, I'll just bask in the bliss e_e....Really...It's like I have all the benefits of a fakin' awesome friendship plus...well....more awesome <____> I don't even know how to explain it. It's just...no stress. At all. None... and it seems to be only getting better.....I think most of this post is going to be how awesome he is... But of course if I said who it was it'd totally ruin the current awesomeness aspects ^___^

Anyways...continuing...It's just odd...usually I'm a pretty pushy person when I really like someone...but this time is just different...I'm perfectly content (really 100 times more than ecstatic) about the way things are going. The pace is perfectly perfect for the situation...just a shame he had to be ruined first >_> But maybe his bad past experience will only make things better for us ^^ That's how I'm feeling about it anyways...

I'm a lot more comfortable around him than I've been with anyone else in the past ^_^ Yet I'm still able to hush myself about things that don't matter (but women still nag about anyways)...for the most part...and even though I'm not nagging I'm still able to tell him that they're nagging at me .. heh. Which works perfectly because it stops that little pin that sticks me in the head from popping my brain @_@ ..weird way of putting it I suppose but that's what a women's nagging feels like...fucking flies buzzing right in your ear. -_-' So if it's that annoying to me I'd hate to put a guy I like through all that, lol. ^-^ So thusly that's my reasoning. For what? I don't know, it just sounded right. I just feel like my life has been brightened :D! How awesome is that? I KNOW! Fakin' awesome ^__________________^! I really am in a rediculously good mood.

Anyways, from all this it seems things have been going smoother as far as daily life goes. I don't feel like I have a dragging weight on me ~_~ Ya know, where it's like "I'm just going to sit on the cough all day watching trash tv" thing. o_O Weird. So I totally chopped some tree weeds from the back yard...we'll see if I feel like cleaning up the mess today or tomorrow >_> It depends on if my family gets on me to do it or not. If they do, I'll just..yeah...not finish. I hate it when they tell me to do something I'm already planning to do...especially when it's not even my responsibility -_- Fakin' do it yourself. Geez. Oh well. Enough of that.

School's also going well. There now studying for another test. Hopefully I'll be able to take it tomorrow. Seems my teacher isn't here today. Odd. Guess she just wasnt' feeling well. Kinda sad when she's not here, she really is the best teacher I've had in awhile. Very encouraging ^^! She's just so nice, and I can tell she really cares about how I progress. Well. That's the end of my post, hope you're happy Scott :P Frickin' complain too much about me not posting. I posted twice last month! >_<... Alright, well, yep. Done :DD!

hmmm...

So yeah, in PA again...I really like coming up here...but there's been a few things bothering me lately....Still having problems with going to see the kid and what not...also, frickin' ex....-_- I don't know why he still talks to me...It's like, we haven't been together in like a year and whenever I'd try to contact him he'd blow me off...then when I finally am like 'whatever' he messages me. o_O The hell. So I just told him to basically bug off. u_u; It's not like I hate him (maybe) but I can't keep doing this...it makes me feel ...hmm... I don't know exactly...but it can't be healthy o_O If he wants a friendship that's fine, but don't talk to me only when it's convenient for you. Ya know? ~_~ Bah....

Anyways, Suppose to start school in January, early enrollment starts next month, though I am officially registered...Financial Aid seems to have gone through, that's good....Still a few things I need to work out in my personal life...>__>;; But...yeah...

My sister's cat had surgery yesterday...that's odd....o___o; I don't know if I'd have done the same thing in her spot...though I would have wanted to, I just couldn't spend that much on a cat >_<;; Enless I really had it...but I don't believe (actually I know) that she wasn't exactly expecting it to be what it was...and once you spend money trying you kinda don't want to feel like it was for nothing...so I guess it makes sense...Oh well, hopefully he'll be around for a long time ^o^

Err...Not much else...just yeah...tired, so I think that'll be it for now ^_^ Though I don't think I'm really looking forward to leaving here tomorrow ( in fact quite the opposite ) ... I am happy I'll be home with my family again ^o^ Hooray, get to see my precious Kimberly...she's such a good girl ^___^ aww... n__n.... at least one of them is <____> Yep. That's it. :D

Mmhm

In PAAAAAaaaaa. Yep. Don't fucking feel like posting lately. Fucking lame. Seriously. Fuck. So yep. I may do so eventually, but for now, this is all it gets. Things are pretty great though n_n Happy. Entertained. Mmhm. It seems like when I'm up here things don't bother me so much, so that's good o___o; Much better at avoiding agrivating situations...it's called hiding o________________________o... May get to see a certain small one on Saturday. That's good. Makes me happy ^_^ Even thogh certain people may not be too fond of the idea. Too bad. ^___^ Makes me happy...well..not that I may piss someone off, but that I'll actually be able to see her >_o; Mmhm, yep. So yeah, since there's a massive screen, I'm not going to type too much since like, this is, like, my diary. >_> So yeah. That's it for now. Mmhm, yep, bye.

ha. Nice.

AHAHAA. Ya know, I was reading back a few posts, and ya know, I did kinda lose my wallet? Which was what I had been planning to say...But I didn't really 'lose' it. It was STOLLEN from me by an EVIL WENCH. Ldjajds. Yep. Sister. So yeah, n_n just thought it was quite laughable. Ya know, the irony. So yeah, going home in a few days. Hopefully will get to visit Canada before hand. mmhm. Yup.

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Time Spent

So anyways, I can't really edit this font since it seems that the page isn't loading correctly...I'll fix it before I'm done if it ever loads...So yeah, Setsuna leaves pretty soon...It seems like it kinda went by fast...but then again, that's probably because it hasn't been time well spent...I feel like we could have done alot more, but oh well...I think I was a bit of a bitch for the majority of it ~_~ Hopefully we'll be able to go to Cedar point before he leaves on the fifth...I still need to figure out what the hell I'm doing with my life...I get confused alot...It's really difficult..like, trying to figure out what will benifit me more in the long run, ya know? Ah well...I've been feeling a bit more upbeat the last few days...figure the best thing to do is not think about relationship stuff so much, less stress that way. Better not to think about the future of things ~_~...Anyways, it hurts to type in this position, so that's it. n_n yep.

huh?

So, anyways. This is what's up. I'm going to Ohio in two days...well, leaving for there anyways. I won't actually get there until Wednesday...which will be, oh yeah, two days. So yeah, I leave in one day I guess then, right? huh. Yep. So I'll meet Scott. I'm pretty sure since he hasn't really given me any good pictures or let me see him on webcam that I won't even know it's him when I get there. So for all I know some random black guy will hit on me and I'll be all like "yeah, I'm I suppose to go home with you?" o_o so Seriously, like, Scott. You better come up to me and just be like "I love you. Come sleep in my home" Because like, I'd be all like "OKAY =DDD" And it will be awesome, so that's the game plan, okay? u_u So yep. That's how it's going to go down. Anyways, god, there's this little bug flying around the screen and I just can't seem to get it..wait...it's gone....anyways...yep. no wait...it's back..gone...did I kill it? ............. maybe.. so yeah, I'm like, tired. It's like, 3:33am..ahahah...really, it is *points* so yep. . . . tired... Scott went to sleep all early tonight. That's ghey. Cause like, when I'm there, he's going to be all sleeping...and I'm going to be all hyper. Night time is my thing. I love going on walks all late n_n it's wonderful. tired...god...it sucks...I don't even have anything...wait...what was I saying?,,oh yeah, I don't have anything to talk about really...I just felt like posting...But I'm too tired to think of anything to really complain about..even though I really have already complained....ooh...soo...yep...well, anyways...I can't think anymore, so maybe I should go to sleep. I need to pack tomorrow...god...and I was lecturing him before he left...I'm just as bad....specially with the dots....and like...stuff....oh god ;_; I'm like Scott .o. Watch me lose my ...n/m ..not going to jinx it. 'night.

*sigh*

Meh. So anyways. Continuation of earlier. So yeah, more stuff since then. Apparently my friend has cancer. Nice, ay? So yeah...I mean, I didn't think it had bothered me so much, I was actually wondering why I was taking it so well then my stomach starting hurting really bad and I got sick ~_~ So apparently I don't think I'm worried about stuff but it seems to physically affect me. =\ I can't even tell anymore. I'm already stressed about so much shit...it's like, just one more thing to add to the list. So yeah, I'm really worried about it. She's such a good person yet she always seems to go through the worst situation imaginable. Ah well. That's life I suppose. I'm trying to keep my mind off it for now, hopefully she'll be fine. She's stubborn as hell, so I think she'll be okay ^_^

Anyways...yeah...blah. I don't really feel like writting anything...I wonder if Scott ever got time on his phone...meh...it almost seems pointless since he leaves on the first...but oh well....*SIGH* Blah. I don't know what I feel like doing right now. There's nothing really...it's just..boring...and late....but I don't feel like going to sleep just yet...want to listen to some music before I get ready for bed. Otherwise I'll just sit up thinking about everything half the night. I really can't afford to do that since I have so much stuff to do tomorrow. My sister is doing her birthday party thing tomorrow since she didn't have time last week due to different evening events. Also there's a church memorial day thing...yep. Church food. I'm all over that most likekly. So yeah, anyways. I'm about ready for bed I think. I'm pretty tired from the day's events.

So yep. Later.

random shortness

Hm..I'm trying to keep up with this alittle more, just to vent...

Have you ever noticed how music can enhance a mood you're in? Like, I listen to alot of love songs and sad music...Maybe that's why I'm always so depressed >_o; It's like I have a certain view in my head of the way things are suppose to be, yet they never seem to go that way. I live in a fantasy world ~_~

Anyways, I have work again next week =D This is awesome. If I keep getting little jobs like this that are only two days a week I should be able to afford to go see Scott and actually have the time to go for four or five days ^_^ Way better than just two days. I would be highly disapointed if that's all the time I got to spend with him. Though the money situation in general pretty much sucks...I'll only be getting around $120 a week...meh. It will take me a few weeks to have enough to go. I was really hoping to have a car to go there with...But I won't -.- And I'll have to take a bus, it's cheaper than going by plane. Ah well...

So let's talk about a few things that have been making a bit depressed besides that.

Even though I probably said something about them in the last blog.

Okay, so I've always had alot of guy friends, I don't get along with girls so well. So yeah..I've had alot of guys hitting on me and what not and it's just getting really fucking annoying. It's like, god, seriously, back off -_- Everyone knows I'm taken so I just feel like it's disrespectful. Ya Know?

But yeah. okay. I decided against talking about it for now. I'm busy. So yeah. Post again laterz =D Ciao.

Past the Point of No Return

Has your head ever been cluttered with different thoughts that you couldn't even think? Mine is. Meh. I'm so rediculously stressed out about things that do and don't matter. I'm too young to be so worried about different things.

Anyways, I'm just pretty much sitting here listening to songs from Andrew Lloyd Webber's Phantom of the Opera. I like the music n_n I pretty much just love Symphony music ^___^ It's so soothing...at least I think so. I really need to start digging out some old musicals...Hey. I'm a classy girl u_u

So yeah, I work tomorrow. Thank. God. Seriously. I needs me some dollars. ahaha. So yeah. It's only for two days supposidely. I really should be home right now asking/begging my mother to drive me to the whereabouts of this place so I can find it in the morning. I have to be there at nine. Honestly, I don't even know exactly what time of work it is. So yeah. I really should get these detals ahead of time. Ah well. Stuff happens. Really. So anyways...

Scott's coming to the USA =DDD I'm pretty excited about it. I'm just hoping I'll be able to spend more time with him than just a weekend. u.u; I know that would be quite disapointing to him. Plus, like, yeah. I want to. ^_^ He really is great, I just wish he wouldn't be all non-shalant er whatever when I talk to him ._.; Or when I say certain things. I guess that's just what I get for not saying it for a few months. I just get confused sometimes...And I don't like saying things unless I really feel them, ya know? Plus when you do say it it just makes it all the more special ^o^ *sigh* Anyways...Yeah...

I finished Elfen Lied today. It was good...Not nearly as messed up as School Days however. It's insane. Seriously. Watch it. ahaha. I was about to spoil it slightly but than I backspaces >D EVIL ME, HUH? Guess you'll just have to watch it. Btw. People. Look up "When I'm not near the girl I love" from the musical Finian's Rainbow. I love that movie clip. It's cute. For an old movie. Still love it.

So yeah, also..I'm on an all veggie-fruit diet. Even though I just cheated alittle bit on it >_> I won't go into detail on the cheating though. ahahaha. I'm trying ^_^ Only drinking green tea and water..mostly green tea though. I really really would like some meat something right now. Seriously. Btw, how the hell do people wear those ear headphone thingies? They hurt my little ears ;_; Ah well. That's what I get for having small features ._.; I say they're cute =DDD Oh oh, I get to stop by Brandon's work today and get a samich. Hooray for Samiches! =DD Frickin' special super awesomeness! ^_^ Ahaha..So yeah...

Anyways. I have my license now. Also my GED. I got a really good score on it too ^_^ Hopefully I'll be starting college within the next year. That'd be sweet. Not looking like the fall though, unfortunetly. u.u; Ahwell, I'm done ^_^

What TYPE are you? HAHAHAH

well...Do you ever get sick of the same font all the time?

I do..

So yeah. I'm in trade school class stuff today.

Basically all I do is practice typing for now, since I'm lazy.

I got 93 wpm today...

I don't think that 'technically' I'm suppose to blog durring class time...

But, hey, I'm practicing, aren't I =D?

Totally Fair.

So yeah, that crazy psycho stalker bitch that beat me up over the summer?

Yeah, she's back.

She showed up...I think it was Friday.

She was with two other boys, who were pounding on my door...

I didn't anser n_n

So yeah, I called the police and while they police man was there....

My sister informed me they had also been out back just a few moments before.

Yeah...

So the police man didn't see them.

Which means...

Nothing happened.

However, I have seen them drive by in a truck a few times since.

How creepy is that? Would you want to deal with that?

I think not.

So I feel pretty awesome today...

Considering I'm okay with all this shit going on around me...

By the way.

There is alot more than just this.

I just don't feel like telling you.

Why?

Nunya xD...

Such a dumb word, but it works ^_^

So yeah, I don't really feel like typing much else...

Besides,

I need to catch a bus.

Dum-de-dum

Meh. I'm so rediculously bored right now...there's never anything to do....wtc man...wtc....

So yeah, anyways...I had mail* to send out today n_n Yep...Finally got off my ass and did something...

*note: It always takes me weeks to send something I say I'm going to normally.

So yeah...I did it within days of saying I was going to ^_^ Though it did take me weeks to get the pictures I said I was going to get >_> Hahahahaa....Always a procrastinator ^^;; Oh well, it's done now, so does it really matter how long it took? Hope you don't drop me for being ugly, you know who you are >_o;

So anyways, I don't really have much to say today, thusly why I'm using the larger font then what's normal for me....Filler =DDDD!

I started reading 'Breakfast of Champions' last night. It's pretty good =D I should have expected that though, seeing as where the recommendation came from n_n Good guy, good guy...besides the him-being-a -dick part. o.O Yep.

So yeah, I really should do that stupid article for the paper this weekend...or at least start it today at some point....I was sick this morning, thusly why I'm not in school...but I'm fine now o_O I think I didn't want to go so badly to the point where I made myself think I was sick...I think that is pretty possible, since most things seem to be mental anyways.....ya know? Like it being cold outside when it's prefectly fine...I mean, ya know? MENTAL. Except when it really is cold and your cold..that is fine....but those people..I mean, that have the air conditioner on all year round...COME ON! It's freezing ;_; Leave the weather be...just...seriously, layer DOWN. . . . .

On another note, I'm happy today ^_^ And beautiful....and cozy....my shirt looks nice...Neil, you can keep that fucking shirt, I found better O_o...no..wait...I still want it back -_-.. Not that you'll ever see this anyways...maybe I should have used a smaller font after all...seeing as I'm way too talkative..I should stop at this point....

Why

I don't understand why....why....

My PS2 controllers have stopped working on me....
...No more StarOcean...

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...It's just not fair...
...It's just not right...
...There was no warning...
...Now I cannot fight...

...The loss of this game...
...It was a premature end...
...I have nothing to do...
...So a message I send...

...Mother just please...
...Replace this thing...
...It would make me so happy...
...I would most surely sing...

That was ghey. Yep. So point is....
I need to borrow someone elses controller...
I really need to level up my characters ;_;
Help?
Please?

So yeah, bored until then...
Also..
I need sex.
Still.

Orange is such an up-beat color.

Well, ya see now...I don't really have anything to write about today...so I'll just post what I ate yesterday =D woo...shitty unintentional rhyme.

I ate...:

Turkey, ha dur.
Mashed Tatoes.
Stuffing.
Corn.
Something Squash o_O
Sweet Potatoes.
Key Lime Pie.
Various Bread Substances.

Yep. I think that pretty much covers it.

So yeah, Useless Informations indeed.

My day was pretty boring. I watched some weird movie that had something to do with pedophiliac incest. Yup. Interesting, and some girl who pretends to be deaf killed the girl's father who had been doing his daughter. Fun times o_O I was like...huh.

That sums up my day. Sex would be really nice right now. Please? =D??

I wonder if Scott is ever going to call me or reply to my last message.... >_> Well?

So yep, happy peoples, I hope you enjoyed your holiday. Maybe someone will call me today, besides Brandon. Brandon's like my bestest guy bud thing, but common, I need other human interation. ... ... . ...Though I would enjoy some Dynasty Warriors today, but I doubt he has time before work. Also, I turned down his invite to McDonals. Sorry, but I have left-overs :\ Bai.

You know after I posted that last post I got beat up but a few moments later? Yeah...sweet huh? Anyways....So yeah =D

Life is okay, I'm in school. fun fun fun... I really want to read "The Plague"; it actually looks pretty good...

Did you know?....

My WPM is 78? Damn bitches, I rock.

I don't have diseases...Yet.

I'm not pregnant. It requires sex >_>

I've gotten the highest scores on my tests in school EVER. Again, I rock.

I have constant dehydration issues.

My boyfriend is a wonderful artist and I wish to eat him.

I believe all flowers should be sharp. Seriously, it's like "Happy Mother's Day!" *stab* xD.

Whenever I'm on my perd I'm super horny all the time. Seriously. I'd so jump you.

I have lots of homework to do. That means bye. =D

Alottarandomness. :D I like this color. Perty. Eat more cashews.

Loud Rap and Country DIE DIE DIE

This is absolutely fucking rediculous. Seriously. It's 3:45 AM and these people are still blarring music. W.T.F. -_- I seriously want to kill myself right now...just fucking rip out my fucking eardrums. I'm so annoyed...they had it down for awhile since I came down and said something...then I had finally fallen asleep...and up it went -_- Waking me up. As always. I can't take much more of this. I'm fucking telling my boss tomorrow them I'm NOT going to work. Fuck that. If her fucking boyfriend wants to keep me up like an asshole, then fine. But I'm NOT going. Fuck it. I don't care. u_u; If this EVER happens again, I'm going back to my moms. -_- Anything is better than this. I wish there was another choice though -.-' I hate my life. Seriously. I fucking get to sleep in a kids bed with music that sounds like it's coming from the fucking sky when in actuality it's coming from downstairs. *SIGH* Not to mention it really is fucking hot up there...I can handle that though...just not the fucking music...I need quiet time, at least durring sleep. It's not like I was asking them to turn it way down, just so that it wasn't making my ears ring and the fucking floor vibrate -__-' And of course since they're both drunk they're arguing away. Jesus fucking christ...can we say bad relationship? Seriously. If you can't get along when you're drunk, then don't fucking drink a liter of fucking rum -_- Not to mention he smokes pot behind her back...O_o;....Completely unhealthy relationship. So yep. Rediculous. Shoot me now please ~~.... *sigh* Guess it's not too bad. I just would like to get a few hours sleep before work. But like I said. NOT FUCKING GOING -_- Well...I could still...I might get six hours if I wake up late...and if I were to fall asleep right away -_- I need my fucking sleep. Jesus. I should just start sleeping in the middle of the fucking day...too bad I have to leave two hours early for work to actually get there on time u_u HATE HATE HATE. Yep. Ahwell though..that's life...At least I have something to look forward to though ^_^.....hn.....

Hyper...

So yeah, now I'm hyper so I can ramble on about life and such...so yeah...I have a decent boyfriend now ^_^...well...more than decent....until recently I had always just gone out with whomever asked me....so this was a bit different..since I didn't really know if they liked me or not...meh...but they do ^_^ So all is well....unfortunetly talking to him has seemed to be a bit of a problem the last few days...hopefully something can be done about that though, I always get all depressed when I can't talk to the person I'm with ._.' I should try to find things to do, but instead I just sit around and sigh. ~_~ I think it's an american thing. Anyways....so yeah ^_^ I'm happy...currently... Just kinda letting life be life....if that makes sense o_O; Thinking too hard can make you all depressed...since...life is kinda full of disapointments and what not...but yeah ^_^ Happy. yep. Good....hnnn n_n....

um..first...

So yeah...the first one..these are always awkward..so yeah...this is it for now...just to have something here....yep....