Kitten? hmmmm??? *nudge nudge*

So I haven’t written on here in awhile. Things are going well. I’d have to say I’m still happy ^_^ I’m quite unhappy about the whole ‘cat’ situation. I mean, come on man, at least let me have a gerbil ._.’’ I just want something that’s fluffy, I really don’t understand how that would be such an immature thought. It’s like, once people grow up they forget what it’s like to be young. I’ll never overly mature. I’m perfectly capable of reasoning like an adult, I mean, I am one! Lol. However, if I want a damn gerbil, I want a damn gerbil! Don’t treat me like I’m some little kid. Honestly, I don’t feel like it’s necessary to even ask. I should have stood my ground in the beginning of it all and established my maturity before I started acting like a retard, lol. Oh well.

It kinda makes me feel shitty knowing that he doesn’t really have much respect for me. (at least this is how I feel). I guess, still, it’s my own fault. I really don’t want him to think I’m irresponsible. I’m not, honest to god! I know how to set priorities and I know what needs to be done! (one in the same :p) But yep, that’s what’s on my mind at the moment. I did feel it was necessary to ask him before getting a cat though. It does live a lot longer than a smaller animal and requires much more accommodations I suppose. But saying no to a gerbil? Come on! u.u *sigh* Oh well, I’ll get him on it one day! Another thing…why the **** can’t I buy an xbox? I’m a gamer too, damnit! Don’t tell me what I can and can’t buy just because you want to own it. We’re a team, right? Oh, another thing. You’re still listed as “divorced” on myspace. Wth? I would have thought you would have put “in a relationship” by now… ._.’ I should just be satisfied with being on the top, ne? lol. Silly really….bah…you don’t pay much attention to myspace anyhow…

Well, I have my school graduation thing to go to this Friday. Woot…finally finished e_E (btw, thanks for keeping me in line, regardless of my obviously being capable of doing fine on my own, mfft! >_>) I’m not really looking forward to going. I don’t want to drive there. I hate driving to places that I haven’t driven to before! It really makes me nervous. Not to mention I’ll have to drive to my mom’s afterwards. I’m seriously considering leaving earlier to drop the car off at my mom’s and taking public transportation the rest of the way… esh… So yep. Man, I’ve really been missing my the old chat days lately! Shuichi, facking talk to me >_< A lot of friendships have been lost in time… it’s very regrettable… *siiighhh*

On to the new! Oh man, Resident Evil 5 is awesome! Played through it with muh man :3 Unfortunately lately he’s been consumed by Fallout 3… *sigh* Please baby, please! Play it on Veteran with me D: … >_> So yep. I think this will conclude tonight’s blog entry. I’m thoroughly satisfied with my thoughts :D rawr… >.>;; heheh…

A Wonderful Life

Ahh...What a wonderful feeling...I have been feeling very satisfied with my direction lately....Well, as far as home life goes. I recently moved in with my wonderfully epic boyfriend. Oh lawd, he's so great. Hmm...howevery there's still some things bothering me. Well, mainly just work related, and I'm sure there will be a solution to that soon enough.

Currently seeking work. I think I'm doing everything pretty ok. I've been updating my resumes and profiles on Monster, CareerBuilder, as well as Jobs.com. I'm starting to understand Resumes more and more each day and have even gone far enough to start helping a friend with his as well. ^__^ I'm quite proud of that, I know he appreciates it, even when I act like an ass when he tries to get sidetracked >_> Like today I was updating his profiles on Monster and he noticed it was moving really slow. Massive lag more like it....so he told me to CtrlAltDel it....I was like like "I think it'll survive for two seconds." Totally wouldn't let him touch it. I knew if I had he'd gone on with it for hours and all my work would be for not. Anyways, I got his info down and am going to try to work on something more professional. I think his standards might be set alittle high for this time in his life. He needs some schooling. Though he is massively talented..people want to see degrees. That sucks.

Got off topic, aye? But yep. I'm searching for a job. Summed up.

Back to the boyfriend. Oh geeze. He's so awesome. I don't think I could find someone more wonderful than him, so I won't bother searching xP He's so great. Whenever I think to the future (which I do far too often) I know he'll make life wonderful with me. He fits into my plans perfectly, mwahahaha... >_> ya, whatevs. Seriously though. He's a fantastic guy. ^_____^ mmm..

So yah, livin' in the house now. It's great here...though it's a bit colder than back home. n_n It just has a nice air about it. No stress really (besides what I create for myself, how annoying..) Still trying to knock out some bad habits for the benefit of us both. I have a little bit of a messy personality, I really am trying to work on that. Along with keeping myself occupied while he's at work. Hopefully the job I find will be the same hours as his job....I'd hate to not see him all day. It'd massively blow.

Alright, that's all. I am bored of this. Back to the job seach : D

Progression of life

Omg, I finally figured out how to change this damn font. . . I knew it was possible to do, but for some odd reason it never occured to me to click 'compose'... >_> Shows how my intelligence is slipping. ^^;; So anyways. Let's see... Things have been pretty good lately ^_^ Nothing to complain about. Well, besides my crazy family, but everybody has some little oddities about their home...at least I think so o_O; So I'll just ignore them as always ^o^ Works best that way. No point in complaining about something that will never change @_@

Anyways. It seems like the hostilities between past interests and I have been resolved...if only temporarily. But out with the old in with the new! ha ha...So on with that. He's awesome. Seriously. I'm like, so ridiculously calm all the time now. . . I've actually began to think there's something not normal about how wonderful it all seems. But screw that, I'll just bask in the bliss e_e....Really...It's like I have all the benefits of a fakin' awesome friendship plus...well....more awesome <____> I don't even know how to explain it. It's just...no stress. At all. None... and it seems to be only getting better.....I think most of this post is going to be how awesome he is... But of course if I said who it was it'd totally ruin the current awesomeness aspects ^___^

Anyways...continuing...It's just odd...usually I'm a pretty pushy person when I really like someone...but this time is just different...I'm perfectly content (really 100 times more than ecstatic) about the way things are going. The pace is perfectly perfect for the situation...just a shame he had to be ruined first >_> But maybe his bad past experience will only make things better for us ^^ That's how I'm feeling about it anyways...

I'm a lot more comfortable around him than I've been with anyone else in the past ^_^ Yet I'm still able to hush myself about things that don't matter (but women still nag about anyways)...for the most part...and even though I'm not nagging I'm still able to tell him that they're nagging at me .. heh. Which works perfectly because it stops that little pin that sticks me in the head from popping my brain @_@ ..weird way of putting it I suppose but that's what a women's nagging feels like...fucking flies buzzing right in your ear. -_-' So if it's that annoying to me I'd hate to put a guy I like through all that, lol. ^-^ So thusly that's my reasoning. For what? I don't know, it just sounded right. I just feel like my life has been brightened :D! How awesome is that? I KNOW! Fakin' awesome ^__________________^! I really am in a rediculously good mood.

Anyways, from all this it seems things have been going smoother as far as daily life goes. I don't feel like I have a dragging weight on me ~_~ Ya know, where it's like "I'm just going to sit on the cough all day watching trash tv" thing. o_O Weird. So I totally chopped some tree weeds from the back yard...we'll see if I feel like cleaning up the mess today or tomorrow >_> It depends on if my family gets on me to do it or not. If they do, I'll just..yeah...not finish. I hate it when they tell me to do something I'm already planning to do...especially when it's not even my responsibility -_- Fakin' do it yourself. Geez. Oh well. Enough of that.

School's also going well. There now studying for another test. Hopefully I'll be able to take it tomorrow. Seems my teacher isn't here today. Odd. Guess she just wasnt' feeling well. Kinda sad when she's not here, she really is the best teacher I've had in awhile. Very encouraging ^^! She's just so nice, and I can tell she really cares about how I progress. Well. That's the end of my post, hope you're happy Scott :P Frickin' complain too much about me not posting. I posted twice last month! >_<... Alright, well, yep. Done :DD!

hmmm...

So yeah, in PA again...I really like coming up here...but there's been a few things bothering me lately....Still having problems with going to see the kid and what not...also, frickin' ex....-_- I don't know why he still talks to me...It's like, we haven't been together in like a year and whenever I'd try to contact him he'd blow me off...then when I finally am like 'whatever' he messages me. o_O The hell. So I just told him to basically bug off. u_u; It's not like I hate him (maybe) but I can't keep doing this...it makes me feel ...hmm... I don't know exactly...but it can't be healthy o_O If he wants a friendship that's fine, but don't talk to me only when it's convenient for you. Ya know? ~_~ Bah....

Anyways, Suppose to start school in January, early enrollment starts next month, though I am officially registered...Financial Aid seems to have gone through, that's good....Still a few things I need to work out in my personal life...>__>;; But...yeah...

My sister's cat had surgery yesterday...that's odd....o___o; I don't know if I'd have done the same thing in her spot...though I would have wanted to, I just couldn't spend that much on a cat >_<;; Enless I really had it...but I don't believe (actually I know) that she wasn't exactly expecting it to be what it was...and once you spend money trying you kinda don't want to feel like it was for nothing...so I guess it makes sense...Oh well, hopefully he'll be around for a long time ^o^

Err...Not much else...just yeah...tired, so I think that'll be it for now ^_^ Though I don't think I'm really looking forward to leaving here tomorrow ( in fact quite the opposite ) ... I am happy I'll be home with my family again ^o^ Hooray, get to see my precious Kimberly...she's such a good girl ^___^ aww... n__n.... at least one of them is <____> Yep. That's it. :D

Mmhm

In PAAAAAaaaaa. Yep. Don't fucking feel like posting lately. Fucking lame. Seriously. Fuck. So yep. I may do so eventually, but for now, this is all it gets. Things are pretty great though n_n Happy. Entertained. Mmhm. It seems like when I'm up here things don't bother me so much, so that's good o___o; Much better at avoiding agrivating situations...it's called hiding o________________________o... May get to see a certain small one on Saturday. That's good. Makes me happy ^_^ Even thogh certain people may not be too fond of the idea. Too bad. ^___^ Makes me happy...well..not that I may piss someone off, but that I'll actually be able to see her >_o; Mmhm, yep. So yeah, since there's a massive screen, I'm not going to type too much since like, this is, like, my diary. >_> So yeah. That's it for now. Mmhm, yep, bye.

ha. Nice.

AHAHAA. Ya know, I was reading back a few posts, and ya know, I did kinda lose my wallet? Which was what I had been planning to say...But I didn't really 'lose' it. It was STOLLEN from me by an EVIL WENCH. Ldjajds. Yep. Sister. So yeah, n_n just thought it was quite laughable. Ya know, the irony. So yeah, going home in a few days. Hopefully will get to visit Canada before hand. mmhm. Yup.

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